A Mother’s Journey To Deliverance – Passing Through The Gates To Autism

The Glory Of The Lord Has Arisen

It was over 14 years ago, but it was a day that is etched in my mind as if it just happened this very morning. I walked into my 3-year-old daughter’s room and I heard a giggle coming from under a little blanket covered head playing hide and seek. As the covers flew back I was so overjoyed to see that the glory of the Lord had arisen on my child after a previous evening of praise, spiritual warfare and deliverance. Her entire countenance had changed. It was like the sun was shining not only on her, but it was shining from deep within her. She was free, happy, laughing and full of the joy of the Lord.

Malachi 4:2

But for you who fear My name [with awe-filled reverence] the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go forward and leap [joyfully] like calves [released] from the stall.

The miracle I had been fasting and praying for was finally manifested in the deliverance of my child. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that my daughter had been healed, delivered and set free from the enemy that held her in bondage to many demonic spirits that included anger, rage, fear, disobedience, stubbornness, jealousy, frustration and manipulation.

Transference Of Spirits

I share my story with you today because I know there are many parents out there who are currently going through or who have been through what seems like an impossible journey of raising a child that has been “labeled” by society as being different or even strange.

At the time of my daughter’s deliverance, I was a divorced mother with two young daughters and in my early years of being a Christian. I was born and raised in the church, but was never taught by anyone how to prepare myself spiritually to carry my children. During the pregnancy of my second child I was in a marriage that was not ordained by God, and shortly after my daughter was born, I divorced. Many of the spirits that I carried during my pregnancy transferred to my unborn child through bitterness, anger, loneliness, fear and frustration.

The older she became, the more disobedient and stubborn she would become. Whenever I would instruct her to do something she would throw major temper tantrums, become angry, scream and fall out. She would never allow anyone else to hold her or watch her for very long. She always wanted to be with me 24/7. Whatever she wanted or whatever she didn’t want, she would manipulate and control {spirit of Jezebel} the situation by causing a major and dramatic scene just to get back to me. I never knew what to expect when we went out in public. If I said no to anything she wanted, that spirit of anger and rebellion would rise up to embarrass me so bad that I would just leave the stores and go back home frustrated and defeated. As a mother who had no problem with disciplining her children and I would try to take that road many times. I quickly noticed that spankings were not working and time outs were a joke.

Demons Must Be Cast Out… Not Spanked Out

One day I heard the Holy Spirit tell me if you send her to school they will label her and put her on medication. I knew that was not God’s will for her life. Then He said demonic spirits cannot be spanked out Kim, they must be cast out. It was a blessing for me that at that time, I had my own in home daycare and I was able to stay home and spend time with her before her school years began.

I would often think about before I had my children and when I worked in the field of Early Childhood Education as a teacher in several day care facilities. I had such a passion for the children who were labeled with autism and attention deficit disorder. I hated to see them so lethargic and drugged out on medication. It may have kept them calm so we could handle them, but it didn’t deliver or set them free. I wanted so bad to help them, but I didn’t know what to do other than just love and pray for them. The same way I knew it was not God’s will for those children to stay in that state of mind, I knew that it was also not His will for my daughter to stay in the place of bondage that she was in.

My daughter was never diagnosed or given medication, but I remembered what the Lord had spoken to me. If I allowed her to stay in that place, she would have been. There were times when she was so out of control that when I would pray, I would tell her “Say Jesus, Just say Jesus” and she couldn’t call His name. She literally could not form her mouth to say His name. I would pray and work with her for hours until the spirits of rebellion and stubbornness would go back down and hide {the spirits would go back down and hide so they would not be cast out}. When the stubborn & rebellious spirit would break, she would cry, call Jesus name and say “I’m sorry mommy.” It hurt me so bad to watch the enemy torment my daughter like that.

God Has An Expected End For You

I was so worn out and she was worn out. To be honest with you I didn’t know what else to do. There were times when she would even reject prayer. One day a preacher was praying for my 2 daughters and when he got ready to lay hands on my one daughter she pushed his hand away. He said “Oh, this one is different.” Even though he meant it in a negative way, I really did know that she was different, but in a good way. As a spiritual mother I was able to see past what the enemy was trying to accomplish and was able to see what God had planned for her life. Although the enemy sought to destroy her during my pregnancy, she yet received the Godly inheritance He had planned for her life long before she was even born.

Jeremiah 1:5

Before I made you in your mother’s womb, I knew you. Before you were born, I chose you for a special work. I chose you to be a prophet to the nations.”

Jeremiah 29:11-12

I say this because I know the plans that I have for you.” This message is from the Lord. “I have good plans for you. I don’t plan to hurt you. I plan to give you hope and a good future. Then you will call my name. You will come to me and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

I was able to see God’s plan for my daughter. As I began to seek the Lord for deliverance of my child the Holy Spirit told me that until I was delivered, my children would not be. The Lord wanted me to seek Him, submit to Him and surrender all. Many times we have received salvation from Christ, but we simply are not delivered. As believers, we must go past the outer court of salvation, into the inner court where we wash ourselves in the Word of God and then press into the Holy of Holies in the presence of God.

As the mother there were things I had to go to God and ask him to deliver me from first. I had to submit, repent and humble myself before God. When I surrendered all to God, He was faithful to deliver my child.

Isaiah 66:9

Shall I bring to the point of birth and then not deliver? asks the Lord your God. No! Never!

We Have The Victory!

There was major spiritual warfare for my daughter, but I was determined that the enemy would not have her. There were days when the battles were very intense, but I literally fought for her life! I thank God for a praying mother and strong Christian friends and family in my life who understood the fight and got in it and fought with me. The day she was delivered we were praying and praising and she shouted “The devil is gone!” And I knew at that very moment that for sure the devil was gone and my little girl was delivered by the hand of the Lord.